Isn't it neat to be bitten by the flyfishing bug? I like to see you enjoying it. You will never be over this "silliness" as you call it. The catching is your goal, but the process is an important part of it and to me it can be the most fun part. Look at you, tying your own flies, tinkering with your gear, searching for the right rod, reel and line combination for your target species. Research and travel. All in all, you spend more time in the process than the catching by far. Look at you go friend!