My struggle

[Amery]

I tend to be a little bitter, a little pessimistic, sometimes even kinda mean. This is one of those cases where the outside world doesn't see the internal struggles. I have 3 1/2 year old identical twins that are both non verbal level 4 autistic. We have no way of communicating with them and we are constantly having to guess at what they need. They start whining/crying, we try to figure out what they are after, if we are wrong they often get frustrated and will either hit us, hit them selves, or(my least favorite) will literally bang their head on the ground. My life consists of therapies, children's hospital, and a never ending battle at home trying to keep the house clean and trying to get them to eat(they are so picky and so stubborn). I though by 3 1/2 I would have a couple fishing partners but instead I am unable to even get them to respond to their names. I don't know if we will ever talk, I don't think we will be anywhere close to being ready for kindergarten.

I just needed a chance to explain my situation and maybe make an excuse for some of my seemingly irrational posts. I'm trying. If anyone else has experience with autism I would love some feedback, maybe a success story or two.

[cnr]

I am so sorry to hear of your struggles. Hopefully you have the occasional chance to get out fishing and clear your head.

[Amery]

I will work for weeks to get the chance to fish. I try to be with my girls as much as I can so in the last 2 years I've started night fishing a lot. I bet I'm getting pretty good.

[Daryk Campbell Sr]

Sorry Amery I am not of any help. But I do sympathize with you and what your going through. I have a 15, 8, and 5 year olds, and thought that I would be able to fish a lot more than they will keep interest. I do hope that you are able to get some time to do what makes you happy, and maybe someone will be able to understand your struggle. We all struggle in different ways, and things are never as they seem.

[BilletHead]

Amery I cannot imagine what you are going through. Like Daryk I have nothing to give except a prayer. Bless you and those children. We are not supposed to be given more than we can handle. You have my greatest respect for what you are doing,

BilletHead

[Phil Lilley]

Where do you live?

[Amery]

Springdale.

[jtram]

Hang tough man, do what you gotta do for yourself as well as for your family. I cant imagine the stress level. Wish I had something more inspirational. Prayers

[Gavin]

That's a tough road to hoe. But positive thoughts are headed your way. Love your wife, love your kids, and be good to yourself.

[Terrierman]

Rough gig. I'd be happy to take you out sometime this fall if you want. It will have to be on a weekend and after Labor Day. Just PM me and we will see if we can make something happen. Taney or White River are my best bets when the water is like it is this year.